“You can recognize survivors of abuse by their courage. When silence is so very inviting, they step forward and share their truth so others know they aren’t alone.”
Have you ever been in a situation where you have a lot to express but no one to talk to? If we sit and think it through, we all must have.
I was always the quiet one, never felt the need to express my sorrows. I often found myself putting up a facade around people meanwhile silently fighting my inner demons. I would never express my heartfelt emotions earlier howsoever bad the situation would get.
But now it’s different.
Usually, all of us outwardly express all the other emotions in front of people except sadness. Why do we prefer to be left alone when sad? Why do we sob behind a veil? Why do we have to hide the feeling of sadness like its forbidden?
Simply just saying “I’m feeling sad” on a day when you are feeling low might sound easier said than done but it is essential.
I have become a strong believer in accepting and expressing sadness since my matrimonial separation last year. I decided to manage a situation of pain and not hide it anymore. I’m not here to tell you a disheartening saga of my separation but to encourage you to express whenever you are hurting. You could choose any medium for your mental-emotional release either maintain a daily diary journal, talk to a friend or a family member, write a blog post in your own name or share your story online anonymously.
I remember my mother from my early years being a strong believer in the famous quote “This Too Shall Pass”. This belief was passed onto me. In my teens, I came to an understanding that every situation has a survival graph. If a situation is bad its graph will go upwards at some point definitely. Patience is the key. My life’s boat survived difficult storms of suffering and heartbreak based on this belief until I got married.
The idea of Marriage made me let go of this belief.
It may sound trivial but whenever I was in a social gathering I had to put a fake smile on. I was afraid of other people’s opinions and judgements if they found out that I’m hurting. I pretended to be happy in order to hide my pain. I was even embarrassed to tell my spouse about it fearing that he might not understand (he never did though).
This became a routine. Whenever I got hurt I wanted to suppress it as hard as I could. Has it ever happened with you that at some point you don’t even recognize yourself? I always found myself wondering would this graph of sadness will ever go upwards. Will I ever be able to see a ray of sunshine? Will I ever feel happy again?
At this point, you’d be wondering what the reasons are? Why I got hurt?
A lot more thoughts and words are on their way and you shall read them soon.
This is my first blog post. Thank you very much for your presence here.
I hope I will be able to answer all the questions coming in your mind right now in the next part. The second part is going to be posted super soon.
Do you express when you are sad? Or you hide that sadness quotient inside of you?
I would love to hear your stories. Please share your thoughts and feelings in the comment section below.